A Catch-Up!

5:30 am

Monday

July 8, 2019

Dear Blogary,

Lots to update you on! I haven't written in a long time,

and lots has gone on,

and lots has changed.

So.

1. I graduated high school!!!!!!!!!!!!

I can't remember for sure, but i do think that I've written on here, at least once, about how badly I wanted to graduate and how much I disliked my high school experience. It feels so good to not have to deal with all the painful things that came along with high school , and I feel a new form of freedom unknown to me before.

2. Acne, my old friend.

I've been breaking out on my chin, a reality I strongly dislike. I refuse to wear makeup, and I've grown a lot more mentally to the point where my acne doesn't matter much to me anymore, and is rather just science project that I get to watch, but still--

it can be extremely aNNoyING.

3. I started my internship!

I'm interning at the Borgen Project, and they only select 5% of their applicants, so I was very excited to say the least. Anyways, I've been doing that in the mornings instead of this, and I really missed writing creatively. While my main role for the internship is to write, it is a more analytical, research based type of writing and fails to satisfy my creatively-starved mind. Though, I realize that this craving is selfish; and that, my ability to write for something greater than myself is more important.

and thus, the struggle persists.

4. I'm changing my schedule! (or experimenting with different ones)

My usual schedule is waking up at 3 am and going to bed at 7 pm. But because I won't be driving to the gym in the new area I am moving to, and rather running outdoors, it would not be safe for me to run so early in the morning, in the pitch dark of the night. I will begin my exercises at 6:45 am/7 am (i'm still undecided on this one), and I will go to bed at 8 pm. I will get ready for bed at 6, beginning reading at 7, and fall asleep by 8. Change is difficult, and coping with change embeds itself into negative mind games in my case. I wish this weren't true, but for some reason it occurs. Though, I hope I grow to love this schedule. I really do. When you think about it, the change is not immense, as its only an hour shift into the night.

Okay, next.

5. I'm thinking of writing a novel.

This would have to be after the end of my internship of course, maybe?, I am not sure. But I want to write it, and I feel now may be greater than ever. I feel called to do it at this time in my life, and I know that I must.

6. I'm moving!

Well, I guess I already spoiled this update, but nevertheless it is exciting. I have an apartment in the place I am going to college, and it really is so exciting. I have gotten my furniture, and all that is really left is for me to move in. Scary, exciting, nerve-wracking, and belly collywobbles all at once.

7. I have no friends.

Or to better put it, I've isolated myself from the ones I do have. It is strange but not horrible, and honestly I think it is necessary. Though this choice I do not recommend, as it is strung to mental issues that rest within myself. Though, despite this reality, I stand strongly behind it.

8. We got a small dog!

Someone left him on our doorstep.

He is adorable.

Well, I guess that is it and 6:04 am means "Good-Bye"

for now~