Hoppy Easter

4:00 am

April 21, 2019

Sunday

Happy Easter Blogary!!!

I'm feeling good today. My dad can't hangout with us today because he's working, but my mom and I will be together which is good. This is the most my dad has missed because of work, and it is getting hard to deal with. What also sucks is that I feel like we never spend time together, and he doesn't really make an effort to get to know me. He still talks to me like I am ten and is kind of obnoxious, and I often feel like he doesn't really see me. I know that he loves me, and that working and money is his way of expressing love, but I just wish he realized that you can't know a person from money. I just wish he'd talk to me like a normal human being and not put on that weird mask when he's talking with me. Like he gets super loud and makes these jokes I don't understand and is never just like hey, how are you, i love you. It just kind of sucks, especially since we have so little time on this earth, and he doesn't spend much of it with us.

Anyways, I think I drank too much coffee this morning because I'm feeling that weird feeling when you drink too much coffee (you know the feeling). I want to start The Hobbit today, but on accident I bought the pocket book edition, so it is really tiny and kind of a turn off for me, but I must fight my superficial book preferences. I stopped reading for a while because I usually read at night, and I found that at that time my mind was never focused on the story but rather was possessed by the thoughts of my day, and I didn't like that. But, reading at night and not focusing completely is better than not reading at all, so I think that I am going to start reading at night again.

My mom and I are not sure what we are going to do today. I am going to research "cheap things to do in LA on easter" after I finish with this entry. Wish us luck that we find something fun!

Oh my god I hate the feeling of drinking too much coffee I feel so weird. How do I make it stop?

byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee