September 16 2020

I guess I haven't added her the state of the world currently but it is all very crazy. Coronavirus, BLM, the election, the air quality, is all so different and new to all of us. Im wondering if i should journal here everyday because it is probably a therapeutic thing that would be good for my mental health, though i also wonder i i should be writing and working on something else. Something very exciting to add is that I read yeawsterday!!!! I was very happy about that because I realized that it was symbolic if me coming back into myself while also having a partner, and it signified my acknowledgement that they are not mutually exclusive. I feel so happy to have her as my girlfriend and im she excited to grow together, to learn more about each other, and to simply ave the prelate of watching her move through the world. She is such a gift to my life and I feel so grateful to have met her. Anyways, my plan is to write everyday, and while my dad wants me to major in english, i really just want to major in creative writing. I don't ink I need to be an english major to be a good person, and I know that it is a sort of self descriptive major for me. I love writing, it heals me, it helps me, it gets me through, so Im not sure, Ill just have to figure that out. All the reading scares me a bit, and to be honest when im in it is a bit triggering. Im also struggling to figure out my digestion situation. Maybe ill see a doctor about the or something, but i definitely do need to figure it out. I just want to major in creative writing and spend my life writing. It smy passion, and its something that i will have the privilege of sustaining for the rest of my life. I'll see you tomorrow.