The Beginning

5:22 am

april 18, 2019

thursday

Hello Blogary,

After deleting this website a couple days ago, I have decided to bring it back. Long story short, I created another blog because I was like, wouldn't it be cool to make a living off of writing?, and so I was in this mode of i have to make a blog that people will read so that I can make money, but what I ended up finding was that I didn't like it. I felt restricted by the lack of artistry in regular blogs, and I found myself writing for other people, and therefore conforming the way I was writing, rather than for my sole self. And art, if nothing else, is for ourselves.

Other than than, life is pretty good right now. I made an effort to socialize myself with other humans this week, and I have found the effects to be really amazing. Merely just being around people take my day from a rotten peach to a juicy one. This made me realize I don't want to have a job where I work from home. I've come to find we need people in our lives, and working towards something that is bigger than yourself with other people is a really beautiful thing (no matter how annoying those people can be). We need each other.

Though, despite all the light, there still remains a shadow of darkness. My grandma is suicidal, and she is threatening to take pills to end her life here on this earth. Old homes are death in my eyes, and worse than hell. You might as well be dead already, and she's very unhappy in that environment. But when you've paid one million dollars to live in that hell, leaving becomes unimaginable. Even if that means you'll spend the rest of your life in un-enjoyment.

Anyways, today is the first day of easter break and I have a lot of things I want to do. I am excited for that.